Lazarus

I make no apologies for this post. I just want to share the way I feel with you. Feelings are strange like that. There's no right or wrong. They just come and you just experience them as they are.

One thing that I've been experiencing is the knowledge of my mother's recovery from cancer. It's a funny feeling. I can't say that I have the joy that most experience. I can only describe it as an almost unwelcome and unexpected kind of feeling. Like my being had accepted the facts and then they changed all of a sudden. I have never been one for surprises; pleasant or unpleasant.

I don't really know why I'm writing this. I guess it's such a strange feeling; to know that I should feel joy but I can't help but say that it resembles disappointment. It's a funny thing isn't it?